when the future is so dark and I'm afraid to see..

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

hmm. i think i will blog about yesterday. since there are more stuff that happened yesterday.

yest morning, i woke up at around 9 plus. daddy was asking me what time my school is starting, and i replied him with half my face still buried in my pillow. so the answer came out something like " uhhh....eenairvuhn..." but i think my dad got it. they are given that title for a reason. haha. dad shook me out of bed again at 10 and said he'll drive me to school. that was when i told him that actually, i dont have school. and the 'lesson' referred to ice-skating lessons. nevertheless, he said he'll take me there. haha. i love my dad so much.

and so i prepared and all, and dad drove me off to JEC. along the way, he told me to seriously consider the prospect of going to australia to study. he says he might even consider sending my brother over tgt with me, so we can look out for each other. but i suppose, unless my brother can get a complete o level cert, he can jolly well stay in singapore. lol. its not like i hate him, its just that i feel he seriously needs to wake up!! he's not going to survive with an incomplete o cert and a mere ITE cert...

anyway, i reached JEC and hurriedly went up to the rink to skate. i thought i just had to pay ard 55 for my walk-in lesson, but NO... the counter said i had to pay 73!! wtf! the office is a freaking bloodsucking machine lar!! and so i went to get more money out, and paid to get in.

by the time i got into the rink, it was 11am. my lesson was at 11.30. half an hour of warm-up?! i met janelle there too. her lesson finished at 10.30, and she couldnt warm up at all because ice time ends exactly at 10am. and so i hurriedly went for warm-up. time came for jonn's lesson, and i told her what elements were required and we worked on them. first was spiral, and jonn taught me certain techniques so that my spiral can be more stable.

that done, came the pivot. i was dying at this part. jonn kept saying " twist your body! twist! not turn!" but hey, in the end, i could pivot for more that 2 rounds! :D after the pivot, was the waltz jump. the waltz jump was taught entirely different from what we learnt! i learnt a different way of arm positions and method of taking off. i could feel more power in my jump and i covered quite a far distance with the new method!

then came the toe loop. jonn taught me how to jump properly and before long, my toe loops felt much more powerful and i could feel that 'air-time' sensation... woo.... wonderful... and then, lesson ended.

after the lesson, i still could do my elements well. then came the resurface. and i think il die. BECAUSE I CANT DO A TOE LOOP ON SMOOTH ICE FOR NUTS!! condrey, i die liao. die die die. i tried again and again, but either i kept falling or two-footing the jump. after the ice dried and became slightly rougher, i could land it liao. uh-oh. i sense trouble.

at around 3, i left the rink with mum and brother. we went to IMM and well, shopped around abit. bought an adidas sport shirt for 50 plus, cos mum said it would look nice with the black skating skirt. (we went to joseph's shop to SEE only). so we buy lor. haha. actually its really quite nice lar, very sporty feel.

i need to take my lunch now. lol. tutorial later on. lala, im off to eat my meefen/ mian.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Friday, May 25, 2007

this morning, i woke up late, and so missed marketing lecture...again... i hope i dont fail the subject :X met jingchun at the underpass and rushed out the last of the database. then we went for mwa workshop. that stupid teacher was having mood swings as usual, but then, luckily he did not come and comment on our work.... we managed to get the database up and running, but meeting with a little trouble with the visual studio...hrmm... im going nuts over this project lar... siao liao... after mwa, i went to find darls at the underpass. i seriously think we never meet for too long already, i couldnt recognise him! i even needed ahmad's help in pointing out his back to me. lolx. and so shortly after i found him, we set off for jurong. spent some time on the bus, i was very happy to be holding him again... we reached the rink and started skating immediately because the rink would close at 7.30pm for ice-time. condrey would arrive at 5pm... before that, i warmed up tgt with darls and janelle. qian hui, may, xiao feng, and surprisingly anthony. he taught me a little drifting. hahax. cool. then condrey arrived and i started my lesson with him. i could do my forward pivot already, although not very nice. i can do waltz jump already, so we worked on my spiral. one spiral i did very nicely, then i couldnt hold any longer, then i couldnt put it down, so i went forward and fell on my left knee. all my weight. at first, i thought, i have a cut that just recovered on that knee! but how come not pain?
and 10 seconds after i said that, my knee just burst out in stinging waves of pain. really. i told condrey i had to rest, and on the spot i rolled up my pants to see my wound. it was bleeding like hell. the new scab was actually scraped off, and the wound was bleeding more worsely. condrey told me to wash it immediately, so i went to the toilet. this is the worst part. i didnt know that the tap water GUSHES out. NOTE: not flow, but GUSH. and i didnt know that. and i placed my wound under tha tap and bam! hit the tap on. oh my goodness. that was the worst pain i've ever experienced for a long time coming. first time the water hit it, i was going AHHH!!! pain, pain, pain... AHHHH!! then i went over to the counter where they dressed my wound with gauze pads. after that i couldnt jump cos it hurts, so darls and i went for a 'walk-through' of our jump and spin. then con went through solo comp again with me. he likes my checkout arm position. haha. yay. then con left early. jan, dan and i went to kfc to eat. after which we took the bus back. baby and i took 66 from jurong to peps, then i waited with him at the busstop for 174. we spent some quality time tgt while waiting for the bus. then he went home, i walked home. and another painful part, i wanted to change the dressing, and i slowly peeled the tape away, and when the gauze reached the wound, IT WAS STUCK TO MY WOUND!! WTF! brother was watching me trying to gently n slowly peel the gauze off. and he told me to just make it fast and get it over with. and so... i took in a deep breath and... zap! tore it off. the pain was hell! it was like, the coagulated flim of blood was torn off together also lar! i was squeezing bro's hand and making silent screams. hell. i dont know how to compete like this... i hope i recover fast. AND NOT TO FALL ON IT AGAIN!!!

i miss you holding me so much.... i miss you so much... i love you, and will continue to until i become insane or i die. lolx. muacks.

Friday, May 25, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Thursday, May 24, 2007

hmm. today should be counted as one of those i-dont-know-what-am-i-doing days. i woke up this morning and bleary made my way around, preparing for school. went down to dad's and managed to grab a muffin meal and shrek ears for theodore. set off for school. i reached school and met them at the busstop and went for tutorials. blaw tutorial was interesting, marketing was a B-O-R-E! then came multimedia workshop applications (MWA) tutorial. gosh i swear i can mummify that tutor in tape and leave him in the toilet bowl!! he is so unreasonable lar! and i swear he's going through mid-life crisis! talk about male mood swings man...
after tutorial i walked to canteen 2 to wait for inline peeps to come. no one was there yet xcept for timothy. so i settled down to revise my law contract stuff. did for only a little while, then benny arrived. he was playing his NDS, so i continued doing lor. but then, soon after that, pang nee, ken and theodore arrived ler. then we rotted awhile before going over to kismis. when we reached the courts, we all saw a guy that looked so much like darls when he's doing acid brake! haha... then we changed into skates, and skated around. wilson promoted the blackcurry card, then we seperated into hockey, beginner and slalom/aggro courts. i decided not to join any of them lar... i just want to urban/freeskate. haha. i spent most of the time at tha rentals talking to wil, adeline, theo, benny.... i left at 8pm with theo n benny. took 66 home from shell, then i got off at the polyclinic stop and urban-ed home.alone. then i reached home and tada! here i am blogging~

i miss you.seriously. so so much... i really want to spend some time with you tomorrow if it is possible. i love you. in case u were wondering what my msn nick meant, il explain it for u :)
Res Ipsa Loquitur = the fact speak for itself. (that i love you). res ipsa loquitur that i love you. the warmest kisses n hugs.

Thursday, May 24, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

sian. woke up early in the morning and went into snooze mode until it was time for me to prepare for school. grabbed my stuff and set off for school. attended tutorials and lectures( amazingly) and then went home at 4 after BMGT. reached home, found daddy and nicky at home. laid down on my bed listening to my mp3 playing all those emo piano songs. suddenly felt so lonely... dunnoe y.... haha... then dozed off... woke up in time for dinner, had it and went into daddy room to do work... and here i am blogging after pulling my hair out trying to do my database project. talked to prince kor on msn, stephy and jo jo...

i miss you so so much....i cant believe im still going through this phase.... this phase of feeling that im not seeing you enough even though i see you more than 3 times a week.... i love you so much.... i know u are busy, and i just want the moments to be memorable... =) missing you baby... <3

Tuesday, May 22, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Monday, May 21, 2007

i dont know y am i still blogging today. kinda weird.
im trying to do my report to no avail... jc said its ok, and i think il do it tml... after all the teacher just wants to see how the project is progressing.

my hands are trembling quite obviously... maybe i should rest... but then again, gotta at least get the outline of my part of the report out.... hope i can last... darls is oso busy with his essay... jiayou wor.... hope im not getting parkinson's disease. lolx.

heart's getting a little erratical again...maybe its you...

Monday, May 21, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

i didnt go to school today, basically because we didnt really need to attend IS modules anymore... our project was already done.... slacked at home, did some stretching and workouts with brother... i might be urbaning later on, while bro might be cycling... looking at tha ring on my finger, thinking abt someone. and whether i should sms him...hmm... i think i will.

a change of skin because prince brother said he could not view my blog at all. so here we are with a new skin! i chose this because i thot the guy kinda looked like daniel. with the specs and all... haha... i dont know lar.

contemplated on whether i should skate today at fuji, but the... " contemplation" took nearly 3 hours, and it was late already, so i didnt go... lolx... indecisive me.. sometimes, you just wonder why the past always comes back to haunt you at worst possible times. and sometimes, the past can be described as rat glue. sticky. gets u real frustrated at times though.

oh my pretty pretty boy i love you
like i, never ever loved no one before you
pretty pretty boy of mine
just tell me you love me too..
(just tell me you love me too)
just take me inside,
make me stay
right beside you.

i miss you baby( even though i know i just saw you yesterday).

Monday, May 21, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Saturday, May 19, 2007

yesterday, i didn't manage to wake up in time for marketing lecture, so i skipped that and slept 1 or 2 hours more. attended mwa workshop where i was at a loss as to what to do. jing chun i nid u~~~~ lolx. after that, met wil at the underpass, waited for dan. then, some interesting things happened of which kor thot it was funny [ it wasn't].

it was resolved, kor went for lecture and we went to jp to get his jigsaw prezzie. had to settle for a different picture because the original one was sold out. darls met isman. then both of us went to darl's house to wrap kor's prezzie. darl's mum was very enthusiastic about wrapping the present, so she wrapped the puzzle. we settled for everything purple. lolx. darls wrote half the card and went to sleep while i wrote the other half while he's sleeping. supposed to leave at 4.30pm, but in the end, we left at 5. cos i let darls sleep longer...(sleep until so nice, i couldn't bear to wake u up...)

we rushed to the rink on time, condrey was there already, so we hurriedly put on our skates and warmed up.then con planned with us how to do our opening and closing for jump & spin, and darls became quite worried over that. dont worry lar, we'll be fine. then we decided darls had to spin and i had to jump. which was ok. im fine with it. darl's spins are getting nicer already, just that u haf to hold urself up. and spin 6 rounds. consistently. lolx. whereas over at my side, my toe loops are landing more consistent, although i still do fall down..mostly when im tired lar.[or when i hesitate/jump wrongly/pick wrongly/swing my arms etc] wow. so many huh. but il do my best. solo comp elements are coming along just fine. except for forward pivot la. lolx. i seriously hope my exams will not fall on 2-3 june. seriously praying hard.

on the other hand, today morning, went to safra yishun with darls to have a trial on ice climbing. of course, not a real ice wall but high density styrofoam wall. used ice picks and crampons(those jagged metal things to kick into the 'ice'). it was so tiring!! but so darn fun. 2 hours wasn't enough. lolx. after that, took 171 to meridian to meet con and wil to go sonata. 171 is SO FREAKING SLOW!! made us so late can... anyway, we reached and went to sonata, after which we ate at this hawker centre, talked about alot of things. then wil and fiona left via MRT, and the remaining 3 of us took 174. sang songs along the way, con got off at westmall, then me. kissed darls goodbye, got down, walked to the nearest void deck and put on my blades. i bladed to the stall, saw it was closed, then went home. and here i am blogging!!

love ya baby!

Saturday, May 19, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Thursday, May 17, 2007

haha... waiting for darls and inline practice... joann, shy and jc went home before it rained already.... i didnt want to get wet in the atrium, so i came over to the library.... freaking cold... shivering like hell... after i post this i shall make my way over to canteen2. cant stand the cold and the loneliness anymore.... at least i can talk to benny or pang nee or ken. wont be that bored... i think... business law elearning done, wda microsoft access work done halfway, then donno how to do liaox... I&E team progress update 1, done. gosh, i finish so many things today. my eye is getting so dry...contact eyedrops oso dont seem to work very well... missing my baby a lot... im not sure as to what to post anymore ler... just that, exams are really close now, so is interschool. projects and cca work, kinda taking up alot of my time, as well as darl's... dunnoe lar, i just want to meet darls... miss him so much... i've been complaining to jo, shy and jc that i miss darls for the last 2 to 3 days. i complained so much that they are rolling their eyes just at the mention of 'boyfriend' and 'miss'. i think i went a little overboard :x *indignantly* BUT I REALLY MISS HIM WHAT!! lolx... nvm... i think im going nuts..

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Thursday, May 17, 2007
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

haiz...this morning woke up feeling the familiar sandpaper throat feeling... was so cold...i didnt want to wake up... kept snoozing until i was nearly late for school, so i rushed everything. while i was running around the house grabbing my stuff, i felt like sneezing, so i hurriedly grabbed a tissue and sneezed into it. ok, i admit. i have this habit of checking my mucus on tha tissue. it can actually help me determine if i really am sick or is it just a passing morning flu. i checked and i was stunned. mingled amongst my mucus was....*drum roll* blood!!! i tried dabbing my nose after that but no more blood came out. so i threw the tissue away and rushed out of tha house. went on the bus and was shivering because of the cold. it had rained a while ago and the air-con was so so cold.... and i just had to forget my jacket. great. managed to reach school on time. now having boring database tutorial.

i think im just getting heaty lar... but still... tha idea of blood is like.... o.O!! i only had 1 nosebleed ever in my entire life.... so the idea is quite scary lar... lolx....

Tuesday, May 15, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Monday, May 14, 2007

today morning, i woke up reluctantly to find myself nearly late for school. daddy offered to take me there on the condition that i hurry. and so, i hurried [duh]. in my 'hurriment', i was holding on loosely to my phone and when i was running ard the house, voila! my phone dropped. and went what is best described as berserk. so, unusable. sianx. took it anyways and went to school. attended IS where there were only 2 groups of students. the poor teacher looked so sad and dejected. we waited for jiasheng to arrive with his lappy, but he didnt. so after waiting quite some time, we left. shy went home while sz and i went to e lib to rot. we rotted for awhile, then sz happily left me alone to go to his friends upstairs. and so, i was left rotting alone. after a while, i decided to wait for darls under blk 56. waited until about 12.15, still no sign, so i went home. i dont know why in the shit i went home when i could have gone skating. but anyway, i went home, tried to search for mummy and daddy, but they weren't home. so okay lor. i rested awhile then left for jec. reached rink at abt 1+. i was feeling hungry so i ate cup noodles. after that, rested for awhile at a corner. while i was resting, something kind of struck me. i have not been skating alone since gazillion years ago. seriously! i have been so surrounded by skating friends since i've come into NP, that it's been ages since i last skated alone.
and so, i skated alone until 3+ when janelle arrived, till then, i couldn't land my toe loop at all... kept falling and falling. i tried not to fall, but still fell. lolx.
after janelle arrived, i skated with her and we talked about interschool and stuff. darls, it seems that there are about 5 OTHER PAIRS COMPETITING WITH US FOR JUMP & SPIN!! wtf!! and i thot we were going to be all alone, but NO!! 5 freaking competitors! from 12-17 years old. and con says we may end up with u jumping and me spinning instead. since i cant land a decent toe loop w/o sacrificing billions of skin cells. the rink closed at 6pm today. dont ask me y..i dont know either =x.
fell on my wrist today while attempting salchow... hurts... i think we fated to ice dance liao... but i dont want!! *teary-eyed* i want to do pairs~~!!! so i CANNOT fall on my wrist again. if not, il NEVER be able to do pairs ever again!! and i musn't fall on my knees liao. time to let the butt fats come into proper and good usage. must let my poor knees rest. lolx.

darls, read your email okays? i mailed u some info.... skating was dull without you... and i sort of miss skating with only u and me... w/o having to look at freshies and committee work... i love you... so so much...

Monday, May 14, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Saturday, May 12, 2007

okay, i've kinda sorted myself out.... dont feel that bad anymore.... which should herald the coming of better times. i think part of the reason why im freaking out like that is because of the many commitments to date. i swear i've never had so many things to complete in my entire short 17 year life span so far. interschool and common tests by 2-3 June. NDP by august. tuition for my young cousin. and merely 3 days to complete the whole week's work. im packed. my schedule was never so packed. and perhaps due to that reason, i began to get nervous and paranoid. and when some small things cock up, i simply break down. and i begin to think of weird possible situations and scary answers for myself. doubts and assumptions, negligence and jealously. love and confirmations.
but after sorting out, i learn alot more things, and im even more sure about certain stuffs. like a tree whose roots are growing nothing but deeper into the ground. a ground of faith and hope. and alot of love.

im currently trying to properly and consistently land my toe loop b4 june. which is really short, considering i only have about 2-3 sessions (aka 2-3 days) left to perfect it. which is difficult, and painful. i hope i dont get rheumatism when im old, because im falling on my knees quite alot, and im desperately trying not to fall on them, and so, my butt is partially painful too. i just hope i can successfully pull off all my elements. and not to fall on them. thats all im asking for. AND the Ngee Ann jacket of course!!! i want my np jacket~~ theodoreeeee~

Saturday, May 12, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Thursday, May 10, 2007

one word: fuck.
im so freaking fucked up today. god knows what's wrong with me... im feeling so selfish all of a sudden. im not even sure about the things i want anymore. and i wonder what i should do with it.

these tears are not mine, i should never let them fall. i need slapping.and hard. yet at times, all the more often now.... im breaking down, help me. and now i think im so weak, unable to handle stress. i hate that part of me. right now, i think i just hate me.

one word: fuck.

Thursday, May 10, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

MOTHER'S DAY FLOWERS FOR SALE!!

Come and get flowers from us at NP for your mom!! we're situated at the underpass near canteen 1. we will be open from 9am to 6pm, on the 11th of May, a Friday. we have ready-made small bouquets of flowers as well as several loose ones for sale!! come down and take a look!! i will post more details on this tml, about the prices of the flowers and such. so keep a look-out and help spread word around for me~ THANKEW!!

as for today, nothing much to blog about... went for boring lectures and tutorials, then waited for darls..i wanted to go home tgt, but u were busy, so its okayy... (: i called daddy and went home.... my I&E project is really rushy man....but i hope we can pull this off and get some profits for all to take home.. (: love u darls! muah...

Tuesday, May 08, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Monday, May 07, 2007

this morning, woke up very reluctantly to go to school. met some friends on tha 61 bus, and we went to blk 56 together. got into class, and only...maybe around 10 people arrived for class. mr ang looked depressed man...anyways, we did our discussions and workplans like good little kids, and after class and some business, i went home. everyone was at home and mummy was pleasantly surprised when i reached home so early, so when i mentioned i was going out later in the evening, she didnt really object to it.... lazed the whole afternoon, watched some taiwan drama serial with mother and then parents said they wanted to go to jp with me, but they'll be eating there while i catch my movie.
first thot : OH SHIT, why must this happen to me!!!
and then, i was already strategizing what to do when...... hoila!! mummy decided to let the dogs have a lil run, so they went to ecp!! i acted a little disappointed so they'll be happier.... lolx.... so they went, and i prepared for my date! bus 941 is so so unreliable.... i waited for a gazillion years for it to arrive can?!!
that aside, i reached jp and waited a lil while for darls to arrive... he came in long sleeved black shirt and jeans, and looked fabulously gorgeous. :) although we could do without the specs :D anyway, we went up to get the tix and sat down at 2nd floor seats where darls finished up his 'dinner'. i felt kinda awkward and weird and i didnt really know why until darls mentioned that it was our first 'proper' date out. which is kinda true.and weird. 5 months and today is our first proper date...hmm... nvm, i enjoyed myself thoroughly....
watched spiderman 3, t'was touching and i was abit teary, but i wish peter had proposed to mj... for me, the show was left sort of hanging... after the show, we walked out of jp and to the bus stop. spent some time tgt while waiting for 174. it came, i went on the bus, reached peps, got down, walked home. the road on tha way home was quiet and eerie...*shudders* but anyway i got home safe and sound(:

the show was abit freakishly realistic wasn't it? haha...the more i think about it.... tha scarier it seems... but i really enjoyed tonight, although not much was said or done, but what was done and said was very memorable for me... i love u... and im sure we did bond tgt on this date... u looked fabulous... dont wear it too often though ;) we dont want it to get too common do we.... haha.... i love you alot...and i hope the movie enforced something, we'll pull through tgt, cos i know i love u, and i need u....

Monday, May 07, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Sunday, May 06, 2007

today morning, woke up, washed up and went down to daddy there. ate breakfast, helped out and then went home to bathe and got ready to go to sonata... waited at the peps busstop with wilson while he told me a certain problem a good friend of ours is facing. i would decline to name who and what the problem is bcos we have to respect other people's discretion. haha. i sound so legal. anyway, we waited for darl's 174 bus to arrive, then it turned out he overslpt and forgot to sms us, so he got down at westmall there and we took the next 174 that came, 'picked' him up and tgt we rode to dhoby. met condrey there, he looked so sian... cos a certain someone not there mahh... we walked to sonata, and i got warned not to go to the shopping centre alone cos it is a sleazy place.

darls and kor got their pants measured by some incompetent new staff. and i looked around the shop and finally decided to get my practice skirt at joseph's. after that, we set off towards the busstop to go back to cck. con waited at ps for janelle. found out we were really late when we finally reached yew tee. hurriedly put on skates and skated to kranji camp. thank god the rehearsals have not started. so we rehearsed and all is good. after that we urban-ed to yew tee, then cck, then i took the train to bb mrt, put on my skates and urban-ed home all by myself :D so fun.

alot of people falling down today, and also kor is beri sick, still go skate... =.= then darls is sick too.... BUT! i have recovered!! wahaha~~ exercising and sweatin is good man! but not on the smell factor...haha!!!

hmm, interschool i must aim for something.... lets see.... solo comp, jump and spin, surprise and speedracing....
solo comp.... i think il be the only one...if so, then i can get gold...
jump and spin... got wil brother competiting wif us, so...lol...still aim gold... :s
surprise..... die die try to get a surprise gold...
speedracing.... il get silver cos got janelle, but then, hehe...il give her a run for the gold >.<

darls~ i love u~ haha... anyway, glad we spent some time tgt on the bus...haha.... despite seat changing pple....hahaha.... loves~ i thot abt it.... actually, intersch can be something like a post anni celebration... haha... so GET GOLD MEDALS okies?? hahax...

Sunday, May 06, 2007
tell me what do you see in me

Thursday, May 03, 2007

“你爱我吗？”
“爱啊。”
爱是。。。？

actually i dont need to know the answer from you, because i know so. nevertheless, the answers you gave me set me thinking...
i was, and still is, afraid to invade into your privacy...afraid that my calls or smses would bother u and thus make u angry... therefore i decided u really need your private moments alone, and that i should not be sticking around u all day...but recently, i find maybe i've gone overboard... perhaps to the extent of negligence? i dont know... because i find that im sort of like, lacking of affection... im not saying that to blame or pinpoint u out, im saying that to blame myself for...well... all that i've missed out upon...
and perhaps countless events that i've made u angry but i didnt even realise it.... i feel guilty, to even the extent that i feel u deserve better... but i know u'll probable get frustrated when u hear me say that... i know u love me. i love u too.alot. it's just sometimes i feel i do the stupidest things and i dont realise it. and sometimes i feel so petty because i cant seem to take certain teasings or jokes u make about me or our relationship.... and i find i get jealous...so many things happening to me....
but dont worry, this post isn't to scare u or anything of that sort...i still love you alot.... its probably me beating around the bush to tell you to give me a longer good-bye kiss next time... which incidently would be tomorrow...

你问我，爱到底是设么。
我的答案：爱就是你和我，就是那么简单。

Thursday, May 03, 2007
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007

today morning, i woke up to sandpaper throat.i could hardly talk properly lar, rolled around in bed feeling sick and rather lonely...hmm.. no one at home, except for bro who was still sleeping... prepared and went to school...didnt really listen in marketing lecture... somehow it's like, today i dont feel like myself. i just wanted to sleep. maybe because im sick bah. went with shy,jc, jo and kevin to bt. timah food centre to eat fish porridge. walked back and went to the library to chill... shy, jo and i went to the law shelf to take a look at the law books there. left library at 2.30 and walked over to lt45. so far!! lolx. blaw lecture was slightly more interesting, but during the lecture i started to feel slightly feverish. if by tml i still dont feel well, il go see a western doctor... i cant afford to heal slowly at this time...too many things need to complete ler... gosh...im starting to feel scared for solo comp... *shivers* i just got a bad gutty feeling about it....oh well...

darling! we go watch spiderman 3 sometime next week wan? i think i managed to find a free time... (: as for the 50 more months misconception, well, yeah...we'll just be together for another 50 more months, thats all...after tt, we get...ahem *winks*...u know lar hor~ heex... love ya loads!!

another thing to let us ponder over...(: " do beliefs shape people, or do people shape their beliefs? " i realised suddenly im so deep...lolx..

活着，从来就不是一个人的事。

Wednesday, May 02, 2007
tell me what do you see in me