oh don't be shocked by my title today, it's just the time of the month again. and accompanying it, before and during, are those irritating details that you cant ignore.
hmm, i somehow find, that before that time of the month, i tend to really get serious mood swings.
they are humongous mood swings. terribly so. i could get super upset over micro-organism sized matters and five minutes later, im as cool as a cucumber can be. it's like the anger and frustration five minutes ago never did happen in the face of earth. but im conscious of it. weird huh.
and well, time of the month = time of torture. i think im wasting earth's precious resources and helping to pollute mother earth by using sanitary napkins. so many napkins, so many days, so many months for so many years. not to mention so many women in the world now. maybe somebody should invent sanitary napkins that are disintegratable or something like that. seriously i feel bad everytime i peel a new napkin to use. its a one time thing lei! thrown away in a mere 5 hours, takes 500 years to break down. sighs.
ANYWAY, back from sanitary napkins and all. went to ICA building to make my pp as it nears the expiry date and i dont wish to wait for last minute shits to happen. so after which, went over to parco bugis with mum to walk and shop abit. we both gotten pashmina shawls and i got a blue retro hairband. went to hypnosis and splurged quite abit there with mum. oh well, she found a shirt she loved, i took a fancy to a tunic dress and we buy lor. =x after that went to snack abit while daddy came to fetch us back. how sweet of him! (:
oh and it was raining like hell in the afternoon!! mum and i looked out of hypnosis at 4.30 pm and thought it was 8pm already. the sky was as dark as night..then a while later, the rain fell like a curtain over bugis.. sian..
i misses you... maybe i can get to see you on monday..
Saturday, March 22, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
hmm. today was fairly boring. woke up in the morning and was rushing to school for isan meeting cause overslept. isan meeting went alright i suppose. met darls and tin for lunch at canteen 1, i didn't really like the lunch cause it was rushed. rushed in a way i couldn't talk to darls and all.. and in a way, i felt disappointed because that seemed like the lunch was the quietest one i had with darls... but everyone seems so...happy... i felt like some black sheep inside. lols. went to meet khaira who rushed US cause she's got a meeting at 2pm.
she's always having meetings and craps. sighs. so, after meeting khaira at around 1.40pm, we spent like 20 mins talking to her, then left at 2pm. what the fish. it made me feel like i could have scheduled my time better so lunch wouldn't have been rushy. man i hate admin procedures.
anyway, after that i took off on 61 home and helped dad and mum at the stall, after which jo and jing came over to have dinner. had orh jian, fried hokkien mee and bbq chicken wings. thanks jing for the drinkss! haha. after that we chillaxed at the void deck and waited for jing's guy. waited some more, talked about job opportunties for the period. we even went to the fitness corner just beside to play with parallel bars and monkey bars.. then jo, jing and jing's bf went off ler, and i came home to blog and rot. lols.
i feel quite like a solitary person these days... spending alot of my time with my parents yet not really talking to them, not meeting friends, darls got attachment, the ps2's been like, my best friend. lols. but somehow im getting along. somehow. i've learnt how to really cut down to simple stuff, and appreciate the simpler (often lesser) things and not to whine about not getting this and not having that. so its like a multi-layered cake, i used to have like, many layers and now the layers are getting lesser, but there's still the foundation and a few layers left. so i appreciate the foundation, and the little things and find, they make me a more appreciative and satisfied person. like messaging darls and meeting him, like appreciating myself for skate and havin friends around me that do care. so yeah. (:
we cant always have what we want, but we can learn to love what we have.
and i love you, now more than ever. and i mean it. (:
Thursday, March 20, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
the movie rule#1, is a horror show about how two (only) cops from the police miscellaneous department come together to solve mystery cases that are not defined as natural or scientifically solvable.
and i tell you, it scares the shit outta you. you may relate rule's scariness to shutter and say, how can any horror show be scarier than shutter? oh man, you're wrong. the whole movie's plot, sound and directing just comes together seamlessly. it leads you into the movie bit by bit...scene by scene... building up the terror, the anticipation into a climax that will (i swear) give your heart something to run for.
other than just being the plain old BOOYA! and the im-the-scary-banshee-climbing-out 'norms', rule gives a rich and rather twisty plot. its not one of those shows that you just sit there and let the cg effects scare you. oh no no no...its far more torturous. the movie requires one to really understand and take in all the details so that you'll understand the ending and how the plot develops. and (i think) thats what they want you to do, to open your eyes up, lap up all the details leading up to the horror, and even when you know you're going to expect a BOO! you cant help but continue staring. and you'll really get booed.
for me? i didnt really understand the ending though...(haha, no spoilers here) but i attribute it to hiding half my face in darls shoulder for half the movie. lols. darls watched it all, and he understood the ending. or maybe im just dumb. :s
because its a special preview movie, and the objective was to promote (??) the movie, after the screening, the director (!!) came down to the front of the cinema to start an interactive session with the audience. of which i think mostly consisted of bloggers and some media. and well, questions were fired and answers were revealed. it was very very interesting to hear the director answering all the questions! it took about 30 mins, and it felt like a bonus behind-the-scenes sneek peek! from the reasons for hong kong as a filming destination to the very terrifying sound effects, this is definitely the best movie screening i've ever been to. and its with darls~ :D shook hands with the director of rule#1!! he's also the director of 'the maid'. awesome!
anyway, today was THE brilliant day. loads of very happy stuff happened... and people, olivia's long hair is GONE!! now its like, shoulder length hair. straight cut at the bottom. wow. i didnt think i would look nice...but hey, darls and jo and ma and pa said it looked great! so yeah. haha... went to STORM by Monsoon at jurong point to cut it. its not like i go there for every hair cut, so i guess its ok to splurge abit on my hair once in a while. (: and im LOVIN' IT!! whoo!
baby today was brilliantly wonderfully fabulously great!! thank you for inviting me to watch with you, and thank you for all today (: and cheers to many good days to come (: i hearts you very very much!
Monday, March 10, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
i got rather pissed off today, cause a friend of my mum's came to our stall and started whispering to my mum that i've got a boyfriend who's learning motor. i shan't say who's mum, but i think she reads my blog.
look, i dont hate her or anything for telling her mum stuff. i tell my mum stuffs too. but please please please, weigh the situation. put it as if i were you, and then decide if your mum should know about it.
for all my blog readers, my blog is just another channel for me to express my feelings and thoughts. i pour out my intense feelings and encouragement for my boyfriend because there's hardly any other way i can do it. and i trust my readers to keep certain confidentiality to themselves. i trust you. and i dont wish for that trust of privacy on my blog entries to be shaken in any way.
and it doesnt mean that if my mum knew about darls and me, then she's gonna give 100% green light for us. she blew up just now after her friend (of which her daughter i also know) went away. she kept scolding me for smsing everyone telling the whole world i've got a boyfriend, and one thats learning motor at that.
do you know how bad that feels to have someone bring you down time and again for something you really wish to believe in? it hurts.
and so, please my readers, keep it confidential. i know its for all to read, thats because i trust you all to know what to say, and what not. if you aren't sure, then dont say...thats the best way. ok? cause if this is going to go on, il need to close down my blog...
darls, for the motor thing, dont worry...we'll figure a way out. (:
Friday, March 07, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
i went to bbdc today with muffin. before that we had pastamania at westmall, and muffin and i spammed the cheese there. haha!! the workers there must be cursing under their breath. thereafter we took a cab from westmall over to bbdc. someone before us left his wallet at the back seat of the taxi and i gave the wallet to the taxi driver.
that damned driver was soooo engrossed in checking out the contents of the wallet that he was driving like a snake on the road! i agree with muffin, cant trust that driver. i betcha anything now, that he returned the wallet to the guy, but took all the money inside. there was about like, 90 bucks in there.
maybe should've listened more carefully to muffin and returned the wallet to the guy alone. if not, gave it to the police station. hmm... :(
anyway, we reached bbdc and saw eeren ( pronounced yi ren) at the smoking area. talked to him for awhile and found out that his basic theory evaluation timing was the same as mine and joann's!! so coincidental!
and so, we all went up to the classroom and sat for our evaluation. i passed by one percent ( i got 91%). heng ar! joann and eeren got like, 89%. lols. they needed one percent more.
muffin had his bike practical this morning and he passed!! he's really advancing very quickly! and he's all excited about riding his own bike and all. ahaha. and me? still have to wait for my BTT to pass before i can even start on practicals. darn. i wanna drive car too!! sighs.
anyway, we took 187 from bbdc. i got down at bb, while muffin and jo were taking it to jurong. got back to my stall and helped out. mum was due to deco a bridal car soon, and she called auntie agnes to help her with the bouquet and corsage making. it was fun with auntie agnes! we were laughing so hard and talking funny stuff whilst doing the bridal flowers. even mummy laughed till her tears came out. then the car arrived and we set to work tying the ribbons to the handles and the flowers to the bonnet and boot. the car looked very pretty! well, it looked more whimsical and princess-y to me. pink and purple and white. very princess colors. haha!!
then dad, mum and i went to bb central to have our dinner and here i am back home~!! and muffin msged me telling me that we've hatched more sea monkeys!! haha!! i hope they keep hatching and growing bigger! one day il trip over to his house to see :) so excited!
thank you so much for accompanying me today baby :) i really appreciated it and i loved every moment of it. from the depths of my heart, i hearts you :)
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
hmm, well, today being a friday, i went skating! but muffin skated today too~ like, after such a long long time... haha.. i was very happy that i could skate together with him again today. it was so much fun (:
i went to darls house today after meeting khai that bitch in school. damn her! she doesnt even look like she's interested to help me with the admin? just freaking hand in our proposals first because we ARE IN NEED OF THE HELP WE CAN GET!! now which part of that does she not understand? hmm, i wonder!!
anyway, after that i went over to darls house to see the sea monkeys being born. which...well... wasn't 'instant' as it claims to be. or maybe it's just a bad packet of eggs, cause we didn't see no nothing when we poured the eggs into the water. 10mins later, nothing. 30 mins later, still nothing. 1 hr plus later, nothing. i cant detect any movement lor..they cheat money one... so after which we played with smitten for awhile and some unhappy moments occurred...
took the bus to je centre, kind of resolved the unhappiness and misinterpretations and all, and went to skate at around 6pm..
it was pretty wet at the rink, and alot of pro skaters around. i was stiff and all after not skating for such a long time, so i didn't really dare to do all the jumps and all. well, partially because i dont really remember the techniques :x lols. skated until around 10pm, and we went for supper. muffin and some friends going out tonight lo...:( so sad i cant tag along. sighs. i love my muffin so much..
sighs, having like, three pimples on my forehead. goodness! why, of all places! questions on life often renders me speechless and thoughtless. (now thats random!)
i find that i've been using alot of money recently, and not getting much heartache. die die die. im becoming like, some kind of shopaholic who would ruin her own life. actually not that bad la, its just cause recently im cabbing alot more. lols. no more bus concession what! okok, i know that's a lame excuse. whatever.
sitting at the living room, not knowing what to do, probably gonna sleep, scratching snoopy, watching brother play ps2, blogging at the same time, see muffin? m-u-l-t-i-t-a-s-k-i-n-g. hahaha....
whenever there's trouble, lets talk them out alright? cause no matter what, we in this tgt, and we shall go thru it tgt (: as a team, as partners, as friends, as lovers. and im sure what i wrote on that paper was more accurate than what i could express at that time. so i just want you to know, that il be loving you(: and you know the rest..(:
Saturday, March 01, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
