Sunday, September 14, 2008
my goodness. tomorrow i'll be getting my semester results! i'm feeling tense right now. actually im not that afraid that i'll fail my modules, it's more of not being able to meet my own expectations. i really really want to increase my GPA.
work is coming along fine, a little repetitive, a little monotonous. but then again, which office job isn't? 3 weeks have passed. another 4 more till the next semester! and after next semester, i'll graduate from poly. time is zooming by so quickly.
and suddenly i am very afraid. i am afraid to grow up and leave schooling life somehow. i don't want to leave my poly. i love it so much.. everything thats made a big impression in my life started there. my closest friends, my tertiary education, my passion, my maturity and my muffin. everything. and somehow, leaving/graduating sounds so...final. as if all i hold dear is going to disappear. i know people will say stuff like 'won't lah, you can still meet up with friends and all. come on.' . but its not the same anymore. maybe im just this crazy girl who's unable to adapt or let go of things, but if they are things so close to your heart, i don't think i can let go with no emotion or feeling.
ah. emo thoughts. anyway, pesta sukan short track speed skating yesterday at fuji. very few people to the whole rink. haha. girls went 7 rounds, guys 20. i came in second, cally first. haha. really tiring man.
its the mooncake festival today. and im home with mummy. daddy went to take bro to camp already. didn't celebrate anything. mummy was asleep on the couch, so i went out alone to play/spam the sparklers. i finished up about 40 sticks i think. just lighted up one after the other, dangling them upside down while leaning on the corridor railing. the moon is bright tonight.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
i went to watch WallE with muffin last night! it's really a wonderful animation film. i like how the show tells the audience about what is going on now, pollution and trash, and how it would be like 700 years from now. where we'll all be fat and reliant on machines, and oblivious to everything and everyone around us.
i loved the show so so much! and muffin said the 2 love-bots reminded him of us. i dont know how and why, but hey, its not a bad thing at all! haha! before that we went to KFC and tar bao our dinner. we went to visit tintin, who was selling mooncakes there, and tried to boo! him, but failed miserably. haha. we ate at his mooncake booth and chatted and fooled around for quite some time (muffin and i had 2 hours to burn), it felt so good to be laughing and playing around again. it's like finding some kind of lost treasure!
work today was relatively monotonous, doing pretty much the same thing over and over. i think i'd better not talk too much about work on this blog. it may get sensitive and shit.
ahh well!! im getting more cheerful now, looking forward to the end of every work day. and also looking forward to the isan camp! this week! woohoo! i really cant waitt! i've not had camp for uber long already! and this time i get to be one of the camp committee! which means i can sabo people! wahaha.. *excited excited*
maybe il take pictures and post up after or during camp. we're gonna chiong umb at night during camp! im sooo gonna chiong my rank higher than tintin's!!
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
