Tuesday, January 29, 2008
hehe... yesterday went with muffin to bbdc so he could collect his membership card. i didn't make mine yet... muffin started his bike practical le lor~ so fast... sobs.... i have to wait till march/april then can start my practical....so long time away...
took bus back to bb interchange where muffin pleasantly surprised me (: then whilst walking through the pasar malam there, we came across this interesting smelly tofu stall. haha!
AND WE DECIDED TO TRY IT!
so we waited for the lady to fry the tofu bits, and we took our portion to the carpark steps nearby and tried it. IT WAS DELICIOUS!! really really!! its nice! except that it leaves a rather strong aftertaste and you'll smell quite...smelly tofu. haha. its delicious. TRY IT PEOPLE!
another first time for muffin and i tgt. haha. eating smelly tofu.
love you so much darling muffin!! :D
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
Thursday, January 24, 2008
thanks to my friends who were so concerned over me.... im like, okay now... learning to cope with it i guess... :) dont think so much, just do. then wunt so stress liao...
talked to darls and kind of 'solved' our little problem... i still think we should communicate more....(although we are talking everyday)... but i guess its more of a quality talk thing... of course i'd love quantitative quality talks... haha... everyone loves that i suppose...
things that happen recently made me admire people close to me...how they handle things under stressful conditions. like my groupmates, who are able to do so much in project work so well. like my dad, who's still working so hard for the family and supporting everyone's morale even though he's so so tired and he hurt his back badly. like daniel, who is so busy and stressed out with schoolwork and yet finds time to talk and discuss with me about our relationship and also make time for me, whether i request it or not...
kind of made me feel like what im facing isn't as bad as i felt it was...
daniel is learning riding now...he's taking his RTL... speaking of which i should do my BTT evaluation and FTLs already...must go chiong...then if FTT can book in march, then can learn DRIVING PRACTICAL AFTER MARCH!! i WANT to DRIVE!!!!!!!!!
i wanna drive i wanna drive i wanna drive... i dont mind driving daddy's lorry. lols. then after i learn it'll prob be my turn to chauffeur the family around.
just got food for the infantiles yesterday (my dogs, i call them infantiles). they had no food for like, 1 day.... poor things... they were so happy i gave them food. speaking of which im so hungry now!!!!!! so hungry....
i want to eat... muffin!!! i wanna eat muffin~ lols... no, maybe i wan eat onigiri...or maybe the seaweed packet...(got money inside!) lols! cooked shepherd's pie and mushroom soup again recently....soup's still thin, and i didnt try my own pie. lols!!
i love you muffin...ever and ever and ever... i miss u too, and i believe that we'll be able to pull through everything and become even closer :D cause we've been thru so much, we can walk thru this hand in hand (:
Thursday, January 24, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
im so....ugh. STRESSED.
everything i do seems like its wrong and i get scolded by my mum, nagged at for the smallest reasons!
i cant even go for agm without getting talked bad about behind my back by my MUM. something about her own children not helping her out and she's got to rely on others for help.
if this nagging/scolding helps her release her stress and anger, i'd help by not retaliating back at all. and im not. i just let it come. when she's done she's better. and the only way that im releasing them out is through here. i feel like a 'chu qi tong'.
SCHOOLWORK isn't helping either. i cant even do my homework at home now. i've to sit at the stall and half work half sell stuff, which is not productive at all!! i feel so guilty about my projects because my groupmates are doing nearly all the work and i cant do much at all!
SKATING, i love it. but admin work is pressurising, and i don't know how i can skip skating sessions. i would have fought to go for a session, but now, i dont know why im not fighting anymore. i dont like that feeling. i want my passion fired back.
HOUSE. im like, the only person sleeping at home now. parents are sleeping over at the stall. and i've to do ALL the chores by myself. all. washing my parents' dirty clothes, drying them then bringing nicely folded ones to them. its better if my brother isn't around, or else i'll even have to wash his dishes while he maples the whole day.
by the time i finish helping at the stall, its 12am. tired already. then do chores, 12.30am. dead tired. i wanna maple. so maple till 2+, dead. next morning, if sat or sun, have to wake before 8am to go help out, until 12am again.
i feel lonely, i feel frustrated, i feel angry, i feel guilty, i feel sad, i feel deprived. what else? im waiting for a really nice, warm msg all day... looking at my phone and carrying it around even if i don't have pockets. i dont mean to blame anyone. i think they're my insecurities and maybe im being self centered, or evil, or depressed shit. feeling not appreciated and taken granted for. maybe one day when im suddenly gone, i hope people will notice.
i cant confide in anyone now.
tears are probably the only counselling i can afford now.
emo.
i do love you, and i do still want you. im not going anywhere. im here for you.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
i lost $20 yesterday. what the fuck. was carrying a super big sized cardboard, with my heavy laptop and a heavy bag. withdrew 20 from the atm to buy something. put it in my front jeans pocket, walked up the atrium steps. went to the shop, chose my product. search for my 20, and IT'S GONE! why!! why meee....... i was feeling like super crappy the whole fing day. wth...
now its like, im so so broke... T.T sobs... and my HRM project is due today, i have not done much. IPT due 28th, barely something only... BSD presentation on 29th. die die die die. AND I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING NO NOTHING!! i was so,... moodless these days. just wanna sleep n avoid all the deadlines and schoolwork and pressure.
THIS SUCKS.
Friday, January 11, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
alright, long time since i've blogged (yes, again..) i know. been busy recently (i see u rolling your eyes).
hmm, muffin came back from korea and we met on the 31st to go watch fireworks. he bought metal chopsticks for my whole family!! ( i love the chopsticks) he also bought baileys and bacardi rum back from the airport, and i have half the share! wahaha... then we went to sit beside the small merlion to watch the fireworks. it was wonderful! amazing! exhilarating! fascinating and what not. haha. then darls gave me this necklace he bought back from korea that has an amethyst on it, framed within a star. *grins* so sweet of him~ after which we tried to walk to a less crowded place. darls and i managed to grab a taxi ( which was only because the passenger inside got out just where we flagged). and by the time we reached my house, it was like 2am. darls actually was waiting for justin's taxi to pass by and pick him up at the busstop, but something cropped up and darls ended up spending the night over at my house for new year's day. haha. (mum wasn't that happy, but well, she played a good host)
on to more recent things, i've gotten back my common test results and mainly got Bs and one C for accounting. never really was good at accounting i guess.
condrey's chalet recently, of which i could only make it on the first day. so sad :( . mum absolutely refused to let me out...sianx. darls stayed for the full 4 days. T.T
i've just made bread with fried bacon strips together with cheese and scrambled eggs for mum, dad and i yesterday morning. dad without the bacon and mum without the cheese. lols. and i just found out that strawberry jam and bacon and eggs do go quite good together :)
im going to make breakfast for muffin tml since we start school at the same time... breakfast together on the rooftop...wow... some morning picnic huh...
operations management project done, human resource in progress of completion.
ipt, bsd proj not done yet, and i heard that they are not easy...not easy at all... :(
Sunday, January 06, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
