well, aren't i glad to see that my blog's getting more receptive. (: well, more receptions would mean im pressured to keep this blog updated! haha..
a few random things here and there that i want to blog about suddenly, cause im supposed to be doing my elearning homework but the case studies (note the plural) that i've to read are impossibly long and complicated. so i've decided to blog instead, since i can release stress and utter sensible rubbish at the same time.
Here goes:
THE WEATHER
Well, need i say more... the weather these days have been inexplicably hot! simply walking in the sun for about 15 mins can get you a reasonable light tan. and i actually wouldn't complain so much if it was simply sunny all day.
The fact is, freaking heavy showers come after a super hot afternoon! which, in my opinion, overcools the entire weather way to quickly and before i know it, my fingers feel like ice pops.
i'd attribute the occassional running nose and sneezes to the weather these days cause it changes faster than i can take off my panties.
OLD PARANOIA
I'm not exactly sure why, but i've been worrying and i mean REALLY WORRYING about competition and more importantly my studies.
Doesn't matter that i cannot spin for nuts, but i have not been studying for my common test. Which is happily waiting for me the day after my competition. and im getting paranoid. it's the same old paranoia haunting me since the last 2 competitions.
and not only studies and competition, but other stuff as well. but, paranoia isn't good, and in any case, im going to try to shut out this portion thats bugging my brain.
CONTENTMENT
Alright i know this part comes as some sort of contridiction as to the other two...depressing topics. but hey, im feeling contented because muffin and i have been making the effort to meet up for lunches. and muffin's been really sweet by trying to show ,expressedly, how much i mean to him and how he cherishes me.
and im loving it. (: im loving him...so much, and more each day... (:
Thursday, May 29, 2008
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oh my goodness...these two days are probably the most heart pumping, stress inducing days ever in this semester.
and i dont know why companies just seem to LOVE to reject students.
or MAYBE, they dont actually have a humane (or rather, inhumane) heart to help the education system in singapore. leaving us high and dry, all by ourselves.
i've come to a general conclusion that the MARKETING DEPT people are NOT GOOD AT PUBLIC RELATIONS. of all the 5 companies that my group ( 3 out of 6 of us) has called, 2 of the mkting managers have really BAD ATTITUDES.
like we're nothing worth even farting for, they just reject us ( actually me) rather rudely and hang up on me so unceremoniously! and the other 2 companies told us that we had to email the mkting managers. the remaining company, which was the original intended one, DOESN'T REPLY EMAILS! we've been freaking waiting for more than a week! n we even emailed TWICE!
and i suppose that is why they have a PUBLIC RELATIONS DEPT.
and now, we have chosen a new company who had very very kindly agreed to help us. BUT WE JUST REALISED THAT THEY DON'T MEET OUR PROJ REQUIREMENT!! and we were so happy that we got a company who wanted us. then shits like this happen. can only pray that the teacher will overlook that 1 requirement and allow us to cont with this company.
if the original rejects us, and this company wont do.... then GOOD GAME FOR US!
i miss you muffin... and im getting so angry at certain 'superiors' for keeping u back so late. its pissing me off... i dont wanna see u overworked, it breaks my heart... :( cause i love u so...
Friday, May 23, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
sighs, this is so heart breaking... every single time i watch or read the news these days about the sichuan earthquake, i feel like crying...
seriously.
seeing all the death and tragic stories on the media... it just works up such a strong emotion in me. the snapshots of dead bodies on the floor, and worse still, shots of their loved ones crying their heart out over the dead ones. those parents who have to send their young children off, those young children who will never experience parental love.
and those noble doctors and nurses who are working nonstop to save as many lives as possible... one doctor even lost 9 of his family members to the earthquake, and yet he continues his job, mourning as he does it. a nurse with a 3 year old kid lost her husband to the quake too, but still rushes about her job of relieving victims of their pain...only letting that reality wash over her and grief overcome her when she's relieved of her job.
so heart wrenching... so xin suan...
Monday, May 19, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
i predict that il be really busy these few weeks leading up to the common tests as well as the competition.
suddenly all the project report deadlines seemed to cram into one week, and the presentations too. common tests are barely 3 weeks away, and competition, 2.
not to mention that my artistic program isn't out yet and i've only 2 lessons left.
I NEED MONEY. but then again, who doesn't?
i feel the pressure... in fact, i think i feel so much pressure until im avoiding anything to do with the pressure sources! like, not wanting to do my tutorials and not wanting to listen in lectures and sometimes not even wanting to skate... then i realise im adding on to it, but its so hard to face the pressure!! im lacking in resource and energy!
ROARR!!!!i feel so... haiz...
what am i feeling? im feeling lost and helpless...suddenly i wish we could sit at the underpass and study together... switch on your macbook and listen to songs while encouraging and helping each other...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
today at around 2.30pm there's was a huge earthquake at the szechuan area in china.... 7.8 on the richter scale. and from the news, many people died.
and i've many friends who've gone to china for their overseas attachment, and im getting really worried if any of them are affected by it.
im praying so hard that all my friends are alright... the tagboard is open to any news that they're fine....
i really pray they are ok.
Monday, May 12, 2008
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i am so happy about yesterday!! baby took me to the gala of the movie 'made of honor'... it was really an experience of a lifetime. im so grateful i have a chance of attending a gala premier... *dreamy*
there was even a wedding held at vivo city in conjunction with the gala! and the bride also has a male maid-of-honor! coolness! it was the life. baby went ahead to film the bride and groom walking down the stairs and aisle. it was so beautiful~~ i was stuck at the gold class room together with baby's teacher in charge and his really nice friend, andy.
and guess what, the wedding's host was FLYING DUTCHMAN!! he was the one who pronounced the couple man and wife and ask them to exchange rings and kiss!! flying dutchman lei! waaa... then after that everyone went to watch the movie le.. but not before we got to eat free ice-cream from new zealand naturals! the teacher made fun of us by asking us to feed each other the ice-cream..haha... and i got a glass of white wine (or was it champagne?) from the booth *there was a reception booth for the new zealand film festival* the wine was DELICIOUS!! seriously! very very nice... but too bad baby and i had to rush of for the movie, so we gulped down the alcohol... haha.. lucky we didnt get drunk...
i like how my legs look in heels! even though its just 2 inches... but hey! i promised il 'train' myself up! haha...
baby, thank you so so much for this extraordinary experience.. i really enjoyed myself, and i hope u did too! (: i love you!
p.s: you looked great in the beanie (:
Friday, May 09, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
i feel like im about to shatter into a million pieces. my legs seem to have a life( or lack of) of their own. they wont support me and even a straight pavement seem like the meanders of amazon to me. i cannot skate anymore this week le. seriously. im freaking tired in my lower body and going to the gym just makes the upper body feel the same.
and i hate travelling so far to kallang alone and back. the bus rides are suckily nauseating and tiko pehs seem to appear on the bus everytime i go to kallang. well, maybe they're not tikos, but they look like one to me. so yeah.
not to mention today's lesson was disasterrific. jonn was actually ANNOYED (i think she was) at me because i tried like, close to an hour of one foot spins and cant get no spin out! always its my body leaning too much, or i swing my leg too high, or i lean back and fall on my butt. i tried so many spins and after that, did my program over and over again, until my feet felt like they were made of lead. and until my skates felt like they are 10 times heavier. and i finally decided i had to stop.
so i changed and got out of kallang, took bus to SMU there, and then took 77 back to bb...( cause 77 came first instead of 174). and thank goodness i bought a bag of chips and a bottle of mineral water. i munched on e chips and was (surprisingly) wide awake throughout the whole 1+ hour trip. and then i realised that i didnt have breakfast or lunch cause i was rushing morning gym n after that, afternoon skate. wow. imagine all those fat and calories burnt off! but i felt really hungry. got home and ate mummy's fried bee hoon, which was delicious. and here i am, blogging about skating.
fucking tired.
my eyes closing le...wish u were here to sing me a lullaby... wish i could make u breakfast every morning...wish wish wish...
Monday, May 05, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
