Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Things have cleared up considerably after church last sunday. (: so now i pretty much leave it up to God to decide, and i've been praying at night for guidance and all. and here are some photos that are taken when mum, dad and i went to ECP for a little break a week or so ago.  


The sea view

Daddy was tired from the drive. haha

Looking for seashells!

puffy's windswept face

The Flyer in the dark. 


I really hope i can get to go out with baby soon. Like to sentosa or to a park or to a movie to chillax and just be with each other.. (: Loves!! 


Tuesday, April 28, 2009
tell me what do you see in me

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Dilemma and Disappointment amongst Happiness. 

I'm having this terrible dilemma now, and i'm really confused. but maybe, just maybe, there's an inkling of hope and chance. i just read from tengah BP website, and i just think that there may be a chance of a solution, however cowardly it may seem. but nevertheless, i'll continue asking God to show me a way out. 

Disappointment in myself and maybe some people around me. sometimes i've no sense of emotions at all, esp last night, towards muffin. It just seemed like we were friends, nothing more. As if i didn't see him at all...and i'm disappointed for feeling that way. or maybe i'm thinking of something else more important, like my upcoming dilemma, to feel anything else. 

Happiness, because i've found something that i believing in... and because i know i've waiting so long, receiving so many invitations from Him. 


but then, am i truly accepted by Him? 

Saturday, April 25, 2009
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

seriously i don't know what's going on with me these days. i think i'm having really bad mood swings. i get irritated at the smallest things and i feel like scolding everyone, as if everything is pissing me off. 

and im now officially still pissed off. what the fuck? 

and why can't i contact people i want to contact?! 
and why can't my dog leave my soft toy alone?! 
and why the weather is so hot?! 
why don't i have a uni acceptance letter in my mail?! 

wah. fucking pissed. fucking pissed at everything. 

told you i've a mood swing. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2009
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Sunday, April 12, 2009

Went to IKEA to purchase the new bed frame and some other things. I officially love IKEA now! It's super carefree there, you can try out all the beds and sofas and chairs, and there won't be any irritating staff hovering over you. I went to eat the food there and i managed to take a picture of the soup of the day. which is some asparagus and something soup. It tasted like mushroom though. 

The asparagus soup as mentioned. 

I couldn't finish it though..too creamy for me. 

anyway, went to church with muffin today, it was an interesting visit and i had alot of mixed emotions and feelings within me. i think muffin is the most understanding person ever! haha. he's being really gracious and patient, something which i've never really seen in all those christians who bug me on the street. and it is also the approach that works with me, i guess. i mean, if i've never met muffin and if i didn't listen to him, i would most probably hate christians now. and i would most probably have continued to misunderstand them. alot of things to think about. 

went to ernest's house to do something. i think ernest's dog doesn't like muffin, she kept barking at him. and to keep her quiet, i carried her and walked in circles so baby and ernest could talk properly. after that we went to visit nelson! we all went to the coffee shop to have dinner and talk about the topics during church service. after which baby sent me home. (: loves! 

i just thought you should see this. I went to clear my letterbox after you left on your bike, and see what i found! (: 

haha. 


Sunday, April 12, 2009
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Saturday, April 04, 2009

I'm gonna revamp my room! and of course, mum's room has to be revamped too (to be fair you know -.-). 

BUT as far as it's going, my room's gonna get a new double decker bed! and also, i'm gonna change the study table, and a few cupboards, add a mirror and some shelves, a fresh coat of paint if possible. I'll do a before and after shot of my room. but you cannot laugh at my old room!! It's super duper messy.

Will probably be going to IKEA to get the furniture and stuff. cheaper there, dad says. 

Hung out with baby on thursday and we spent some well-deserved time together! (: It felt like ages since we could have some private time! haha..we went to Jurong Point too, and he showed me the HelloKitty merchandise shop. it was a really cute shop! the little clutch purses and bags are eye catchingly cute, the kawaii-ne kind of cute! then we went to ntuc xtra to do some random shopping. we looked at alcohol and campbell and searched in vain for salsa sauce. but in the end, baby bought a lobster bisque canned soup and we both got clam chowder cans and a bottle of Perrier sparkling water infused with lime. 
According to baby on the phone today, the lobster bisque soup is definitely worth it's $5.95, and according to us on thursday, the bottle of Perrier is as good as throwing our $3 into the bin. It's like antiseptic that you would smell in the hospital. except now, you're tasting it. Sheesh. I don't know why high class people would want to drink sparkling water if they all taste like that. 
Baby and I ended off the day eating orh-ya mee sua. i gave my oysters to baby and he says they are good. :x It was a great day spent together =D 

I'm looking forward to my new room! and also, perhaps a part-time job, and hopefully some miracle to guide me on my path. lols. 

i love you baby (: 

Saturday, April 04, 2009
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