okay, i've kinda sorted myself out.... dont feel that bad anymore.... which should herald the coming of better times. i think part of the reason why im freaking out like that is because of the many commitments to date. i swear i've never had so many things to complete in my entire short 17 year life span so far. interschool and common tests by 2-3 June. NDP by august. tuition for my young cousin. and merely 3 days to complete the whole week's work. im packed. my schedule was never so packed. and perhaps due to that reason, i began to get nervous and paranoid. and when some small things cock up, i simply break down. and i begin to think of weird possible situations and scary answers for myself. doubts and assumptions, negligence and jealously. love and confirmations.
but after sorting out, i learn alot more things, and im even more sure about certain stuffs. like a tree whose roots are growing nothing but deeper into the ground. a ground of faith and hope. and alot of love.
im currently trying to properly and consistently land my toe loop b4 june. which is really short, considering i only have about 2-3 sessions (aka 2-3 days) left to perfect it. which is difficult, and painful. i hope i dont get rheumatism when im old, because im falling on my knees quite alot, and im desperately trying not to fall on them, and so, my butt is partially painful too. i just hope i can successfully pull off all my elements. and not to fall on them. thats all im asking for. AND the Ngee Ann jacket of course!!! i want my np jacket~~ theodoreeeee~
Saturday, May 12, 2007
tell me what do you see in me
