hmm. today was fairly boring. woke up in the morning and was rushing to school for isan meeting cause overslept. isan meeting went alright i suppose. met darls and tin for lunch at canteen 1, i didn't really like the lunch cause it was rushed. rushed in a way i couldn't talk to darls and all.. and in a way, i felt disappointed because that seemed like the lunch was the quietest one i had with darls... but everyone seems so...happy... i felt like some black sheep inside. lols. went to meet khaira who rushed US cause she's got a meeting at 2pm.
she's always having meetings and craps. sighs. so, after meeting khaira at around 1.40pm, we spent like 20 mins talking to her, then left at 2pm. what the fish. it made me feel like i could have scheduled my time better so lunch wouldn't have been rushy. man i hate admin procedures.
anyway, after that i took off on 61 home and helped dad and mum at the stall, after which jo and jing came over to have dinner. had orh jian, fried hokkien mee and bbq chicken wings. thanks jing for the drinkss! haha. after that we chillaxed at the void deck and waited for jing's guy. waited some more, talked about job opportunties for the period. we even went to the fitness corner just beside to play with parallel bars and monkey bars.. then jo, jing and jing's bf went off ler, and i came home to blog and rot. lols.
i feel quite like a solitary person these days... spending alot of my time with my parents yet not really talking to them, not meeting friends, darls got attachment, the ps2's been like, my best friend. lols. but somehow im getting along. somehow. i've learnt how to really cut down to simple stuff, and appreciate the simpler (often lesser) things and not to whine about not getting this and not having that. so its like a multi-layered cake, i used to have like, many layers and now the layers are getting lesser, but there's still the foundation and a few layers left. so i appreciate the foundation, and the little things and find, they make me a more appreciative and satisfied person. like messaging darls and meeting him, like appreciating myself for skate and havin friends around me that do care. so yeah. (:
we cant always have what we want, but we can learn to love what we have.
and i love you, now more than ever. and i mean it. (:
Thursday, March 20, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
