when the future is so dark and I'm afraid to see..

Saturday, June 28, 2008

recently, just very recently, i've been having a lot of frustration over vehicles.. i don't exactly know why. and maybe it's really immature of me to be that way, but i feel pressured.

i think im too competitive. or am i?

why do i make so much fuss over this? why why why? ARGH. im frustrated. so many obstacles... i know i can take up part time jobs to finance myself... but just when my grades are starting to look good? and my attachment coming up? i don't want to do badly this semester because i know i can do well...

sighs.

i feel that need to drive. i want to bury myself in muffin's arms and never come out to see this world ever again. im feeling insecure and vunerable. i need his warmth and security all around me.

Saturday, June 28, 2008
tell me what do you see in me

Monday, June 23, 2008

so here are the pictures, as promised (:

the view from halfway up the flyer.

dan staring off into the distance =D

this picture seemed to the more decent ones of us tgt..
the others were just....darkness.

this picture was when we were nearing the top of the flyer.

beautiful isn't it... (:

and when i reached home and was taking off my clothes to bathe, i forgot to do it gently and ended up yanking my shirt off. and my necklace chain broke... :(

but thank goodness the pendant's still good and i got a spare chain.. :D

anyway, i really like one dress i saw at thisfashion.

haha....oh well..next time il post more picss.. (:

Monday, June 23, 2008
tell me what do you see in me

yes, i see that i've not been updating on my blog..tsk tsk... Well i guess i didn't really have the mood to blog recently, but im back again!

Hmm... many things have happened since the last post, so il just do up a general summary eh?

Interschool competition i got 3 golds, 2 silvers and 2 below-bronze placings. common tests went pretty well, and i do believe il pass all the papers.

Holidays were...neutral. I spent most of the holidays spending time with mummy and daddy. Family bonding thingy. i remembered watching indiana jones with mummy, and a few days later we dragged daddy to watch a family movie at marina square...we watched kung fu panda! super funny show! and a few more days later, dragged mummy to watch the sneak preview of Zohan tgt with muffin's senior, Gel. Many thanks to muffin for the tix! (=

and just yesterday muffin and i and 4 other couples and a girl went to Singapore Flyers!! All of us knew each other of course, and i felt the ride was rather fast leh! even though the ride lasted more than 30 mins. but the view was nice of course, you can see marina area lighted up beautifully. (it was a 7pm ride) After that we had Popeyes for dinner and a few more pictures later, justin, rosa, dan and i had to run after 106! i was running in heels! like whoa.... haha.. baby walked me home from the interchange and we spent a little quality time tgt before i reached home..around midnight. haha... mummy nagged of course, but she was to engrossed in her midnight show to bother that much (=

i will post some flyer pictures later on in the next post.

Reached school at 12 noon today to meet khaira with alicia for the claiming of the coaching fee thing. sighs. more paperwork and WAITING. for the moolah. i need my own moolah.

i love my darling. about one week later there'll be a special day.just for the both of us. (: time flies...it really does...

i love you. we'll face everything together, as one. because we've come so far, and have had so many beautiful memories. because i still proudly look into your eyes and tell you im yours. because you love me. and because when im with you, i can forget the world. i love you.

Monday, June 23, 2008
tell me what do you see in me

Monday, June 09, 2008

finally the common testss are over!!
but there's still tons of irksome projects to complete and all their deadlines are like, one week after the holidays...

and i just suddenly realised how fast my semester is going to end. its ending this late august! thats like... 2 months away? maybe even less than that.. oh gosh..

i hearts my baby darling muffin!! i hope we can go out again soon... i love love love you!!! <3 muackss!! :D

Monday, June 09, 2008
tell me what do you see in me

Thursday, June 05, 2008

i don't really know why but im just feeling so....sian. sure, competition went really satisfactory for me, and i bagged 3 golds..but maybe its the exams that's causing me to feel so shitty.

i feel sick, just sitting still at home, not doing anything but studying.. not getting anything into my brain whilst studying, and not going out at all.. it makes me feel sick.

i want to go out again...i want watch movies and chill at coffee beans and skate and even help muffin with his work... anything but sitting my ass on the chair and facing lecture notes. not now anyway!!...ROAR!!

and its depressing to know i've got attachment on the 25th aug till 11th oct!! its FRUSTRATING!! how the fishes am i supposed to celebrate muffin's and my birthday!! bloody attachment!!!

so pissed.

Thursday, June 05, 2008
tell me what do you see in me