Sunday, September 14, 2008
my goodness. tomorrow i'll be getting my semester results! i'm feeling tense right now. actually im not that afraid that i'll fail my modules, it's more of not being able to meet my own expectations. i really really want to increase my GPA.
work is coming along fine, a little repetitive, a little monotonous. but then again, which office job isn't? 3 weeks have passed. another 4 more till the next semester! and after next semester, i'll graduate from poly. time is zooming by so quickly.
and suddenly i am very afraid. i am afraid to grow up and leave schooling life somehow. i don't want to leave my poly. i love it so much.. everything thats made a big impression in my life started there. my closest friends, my tertiary education, my passion, my maturity and my muffin. everything. and somehow, leaving/graduating sounds so...final. as if all i hold dear is going to disappear. i know people will say stuff like 'won't lah, you can still meet up with friends and all. come on.' . but its not the same anymore. maybe im just this crazy girl who's unable to adapt or let go of things, but if they are things so close to your heart, i don't think i can let go with no emotion or feeling.
ah. emo thoughts. anyway, pesta sukan short track speed skating yesterday at fuji. very few people to the whole rink. haha. girls went 7 rounds, guys 20. i came in second, cally first. haha. really tiring man.
its the mooncake festival today. and im home with mummy. daddy went to take bro to camp already. didn't celebrate anything. mummy was asleep on the couch, so i went out alone to play/spam the sparklers. i finished up about 40 sticks i think. just lighted up one after the other, dangling them upside down while leaning on the corridor railing. the moon is bright tonight.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
tell me what do you see in me
