Tuesday, February 03, 2009
"What are you planning to do after you graduate from poly?"
honestly, i don't know. i was pretty sure about what i was going to do after poly...until today.
until today, i didn't exactly bother to research on my intended course.
until today, i didn't know that Singapore doesn't offer any degrees on my intended course.
until today, i didn't know that i'd probably have to stay for at least 4 to 5 years abroad to study my intended course.
until today, i didn't realise that if i pursued my intended course abroad, it'll probably cost me AU45,000 annually.
until today, i didn't know that i'll need A level science for a minimum to be able to enter a uni safely.
until today, i didn't know how much i'd have to sacrifice to pursue my intended course.
My intended course? Veterinary studies.
yes, laugh and giggle at me all you want. A business IT diploma student turning 180 degrees around to study veterinary studies?! I've always been so sure about becoming a vet, because i love animals and i have been loving them almost all my life. but now things have kind of gotten me thinking on earth instead of up on the moon.
Is it remotely possible??
And everyone around me seems to know where they wanna go, what they wanna do.
shy wants to major in Tourism, and that's good for her. baby wants to go into NTU to major his media studies, and that's good too! half of my class are probably already applying for business majors in NTU, NUS or SMU. and the thing is, they CAN get into these unis!
The thing with me? i'm trying to change course totally.
It's like you're already heading downstream, and then suddenly you want to turn around and start going upstream to swim to the top of Niagara Falls.
And then my confidance wavers and i become cowardly, so i consider taking something to do with business. like LAW, or BIZ & COMPUTING. these courses are more realistic and they could earn me pretty good money.but my heart tells me that i cannot continue forcing myself to study something i don't like!
my heart and mind are telling me two totally different things! i mean, sure, i want my vet degree badly. but i know that there are many things i cannot let go, like my family, and muffin. i cannot study there all alone for 4 or 5 years! and the market for vets is very limited here in singapore. but i love animals. i want to heal them, i want to be able to save them.
Sighs. I'm very disappointed that Singapore doesn't offer vet courses. i'm more disappointed when i think about the future, where i may not be able to love the work that i do.
I'm glad you know what you want, muffin. I'm probably envious because you knew what you wanted from the beginning, and didn't have to go through this dilemma like me.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
tell me what do you see in me
